embracing the cross

Last Wednesday was the beginning of Lent on the Christian calendar. I grew up in the Catholic Church and celebrated the Lent tradition for the majority of my childhood. Every year we would go to church on ash Wednesday and get ashes rubbed onto our foreheads and we would give up candy or pop or television.

In my early twenties I gave my life to Jesus in a brand new way. My life was changed forever. I entered into the world of the Evangelical Christian church and scoffed at the seamingly meaningless rituals of my past church life.

But, years of growing in Christ taught me that those traditions and rituals were there for a reason. They were grounded in deep biblical truth and rich meaning. As a child, I never quite understood the why behind it all. They just felt like rules at the time.

Over the past several years we have chosen to embrace the season of Lent. It has helped my faith in ways that I never expected.

This year, I did not choose to give up sugar, coffee or wine. This year the thing that I am trying so desperately to give up is STRESS. I need to learn to let go of the worry. I need to trust HIM more on a daily basis. His plans are better than mine. His timing is perfect. His peace is always available to me.

I want to walk in this. Every single day.

Easier said than done, right?

It is a hard thing to give up. It somehow, makes me feel important if I have something to worry about. Like I am the one with the power. Little by little, I am letting go of things that I didn't even know I was keeping from God. I am seeking his face more and asking him to help me, asking him to show me what I am holding onto too tightly.

I am so desperately trying to embrace the cross. I am nailing up my worries, my fears and my stress.

The less I worry, the less energy I give to stress......The more energy I have for my children, for my husband and creativity seems to come back to my once weary soul.

Maybe this is too much rambling, maybe you just want to see more pictures. But maybe, just maybe He is calling you to lay some things down as well. Feel free to share.

We are all in this together.

Me: "What are you drawing buddy?"

Keegan: "Jesus and the cross. Remember Mommy, he died on the cross for us."

Me: "Thank you so much for the reminder buddy. Sometimes even Mommies need reminding."